touchdown!

i can’t believe it! i’m actually back in my room. my good old bed just a meter away. my trusty PC misses me so. “almost” everything has not changed. after unpacking my junk i found that my room suddenly feels a lot smaller. is it cozy? i don’t really know yet. being back feels just so normal. like a part of you that you never notice was ever missing.

deep down inside i’m feeling scared about what is to come. however, right now i’m just so preoccupied with things i need to get done that not every worry i have had sunked in yet. but i’m sure it’ll creep up on me soon.

mom and dad i’m sure is happy to see me, however little they showed it. we’re not a very expressive lot. dinner was ho-hum, i’m craving for some good local food. the kachang-mua and asam fish head i had at BDC was disappointingly watered down. my sister got a new car as i’m sure she is happily parading the vios around in sibu.

part of me is sad to not be in Bangkok. i guess nothing last forever. i’m dreading to work in Kuching or KL. it feels as if i’m taking a step backward than progressing forward. this feeling sucks big time.

well anyway, now that i’m back in Kuching (for a little while), i wonder who i’ll bump into soon. nothing like seeing an old face to make me feel at home. could it be you? looking forward to it. ^_^

uncertain

it’s april fool’s day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!! and…that’s the only happy news i got to share. i’m more or less officially unemployed. a scheduled interview is to happen 2 days from now where i will find myself in Kuala Lumpur, daytrip.

it’s been GREAT being in Bangkok. best working environment ever, fun people and deliciously cheap food. sad to be leaving but i have to go where my work takes me.

where do i see myself 5-10 years from now? constantly playing in my mind. i would so love to do my own thing but being financially unstable is always a worry. if life wasn’t so complicated i would be enjoying it a lot more. stress is my constant companion. but then again, i have to remind myself i’m better off than most and i have to believe there is a place for me here.

the other thing i’m looking forward to is to step down on Kuching soil come this friday. being with family again would be a blessing. mmm, local Malaysian food beckons. future looking rather bleak but holding my head up and hoping for the best.

now in bangkok

sa-wa-di-khrap! been a “long” while since i last updated. well, there sure are stories to share with me being away from my hometown for oh so long. broke up before chinese new year, met someone during valentine’s…the usual roller-coaster relationship thingy that seems to befallen every couple i know these days.

surprisingly, i’m doing this entry as i’m bored out of my mind. supposedly to conduct a workshop right now, but seems like no ones quite ready to participate just yet. as such, i’m watching the clock ticking away and wondering in the back of my head if i should just call it a day instead.

i can think of ten things i’d rather be doing than waiting on people. one of them is sleep! yes, i’ve not gotten enough rest lately, why being out partying till 4am at least 3 times a week, i’m very impressed that i’ve not fallen over a chair as yet. red bull is my constant wake up call to make it through a working day. that and lots of h2o.

most days go by very fast when i’m conducting workshops. unfortunately today is an exception. doing nothing only helps to shut my mind off and make me drowsy.

anyway, my proficiency in thai is progressing rather slowly. enough to get by and impress the girls at the very least. gonna leave you with a few fun phrases if you ever happen to drop by Bangkok:

wa-ni khoon soi-chang ~ you look very pretty today
khoon su-wai he-sut nai-ro ~ you’re the most beautiful girl in the world
phom kit-teng khoon chang ~ i miss you very much
khoon me-seh-neh ~ your charming

be wary when using these phrases as from what i gather, it is most unusual for any guy in thailand to spout these romantic-compliments. then again, being the exception will always get you a smile or two.

see ya!

back in Kuching!

touchdown! i’m back in Kuching. what a way to start a new year. got an sms upon arrival – “i think we should break up”. yep, i guess i’m single again. sad? not really, kinda expecting it. not sure why it took so long thought. read my horoscope yesterday about me not having a good year for relationship but should expect a good income boost this year. woohoo! horoscope warns that i should watch my spending thought. nice to keep in mind.

everything is familiar. Kuching is same same. my room is the same, my bed is the same (except my blankets which smells kinda different) and my pc is the same (ah, the familiar purring noises it greets me when i boot it up).

coming back should be a time for relaxation but not for mua, as i have tons of things to get done in preparation for the chinese new year, not to mention some stuff from work i need to get out of the way. buzy buzy.

anyway my dad, an ex-dentition, is asking me to help him sell his dental equipments online. saying their worth perhaps around rm10K, i’m wondering to myself where should i get started. not everyday people would buy dental stuff from ebay or lelong.com. then there’s the whole hassle of setting up a paypal account, taking elegant presentation pictures and putting elaborately enticing words to go with the items. hassle! advice is always welcome.

mom wants to go bangkok on holiday in march. asks me to help check for tours and such. doubt i’ll be able to be a great tour guide if i should join them. i speak a little thai – nit noy, not enough to price haggle if you know what i mean.

anyway, it’s great being back. just wait a few days for Kuching life to sink in. till then, i’m gonna go around to get reacquainted with my hometown.

countdown to 2009

with only an hour away till the new year, i find myself isolated in my little Bangkok apartment. yes that’s right, this coming new year i’ll not be celebrating it in Malaysia. sitting in my comfy bed and watching the television blaring loud thai music, it can only be a live concert happening at Central World, a few skytrain stops from where i’m staying.

curiously i remembered that last year i was entertained with the happenings in Kuala Lumpur through the television as well when us Malaysian’s was counting down to 2008.

well when it comes down to it, i guess ringing in the new year is not much of a big deal for me. my idea of a fun time is good food, great conversation and a reliable online connection. don’t get me wrong though, i do enjoy a party once in a while.

now there should be a time difference between Malaysia and Thailand. i think Bangkok will probably be 2009 after Malaysia. so technically being Malaysian, i get to celebrate the countdown twice, no? hehe…

i’m torn in watching the countdown happening on television or start up my playstation 2 for some rpg fun. decisions decisions…

anyways, here’s wishing you a happy new year and all the best in your future undertakings. i know some friends of mine are probably hanging out at Soho and Mojo right now, to them – have fun, play safe and drive safe.

i’m gonna go back to watching some television and enjoying my lime flavoured sherbet. cheers!